This I Believe.....

When I was little, I was that kid who would run away from my parents. The kid who when I learned to walk had to much confidence in myself, tripped and needed stitches. I was that kid who wanted to be part of every sport and be part of every club. I thrive in large groups of people where no one knows each other. I get tired of being around the same people and have never had a "friend group". I'm hardly ever at home or in my room. For as long as I can remember I have known that the two things I wanted in a college were 1. being able to study abroad and 2. getting as far from home as possible. That is why everyone was stunned when I chose Santa Clara University, a quick hour and 20 minute flight from home.


For people who don't know me very well, they would say I've had it made coming to college. Two of my best friends from high school came to Santa Clara with me and I am getting along with then now better than ever before. In the first week of school, I made the best group of friend I could have asked for, and since then my friends have just continued to multiply. I can always find someone to hang out with or eat with, and I'm hardly ever alone. I get pretty good grades, and I love my classes as much as someone can love school. For the most part, I know what I want to do with my life. I have found a place on the swim team, in reslife and among the civil engineering community. I have found people to look up to and people who inspire me.


What could be missing? It took me a long time to answer that question. When anyone asks me how I like college I say "I LOVE IT", which I truly do. I can't name one thing that I don't like about Santa Clara. I realize I am extremely fortunate for the easy transition and opportunity to come to go to school here. BUT, I am not happy. Well, thats not completely true. Its kind of hard to describe. Its like I'm living in a dream. In a bubble where nothing bad can touch me. Its like I don't feel anything bad, but at the same time I don't feel anything good either. It's like I'm walking on a never ending straight path with no obstacles.


Now, let me tell you what's missing. Adventure. I am the college student who wishes she was somewhere else. I am the college student who sees to many people from home on a daily basis. The college student who feels trapped in the bubble on Santa Clara's campus. I am restless. I am ready to stop the weekly routine and find something new and interesting to explore. I feel like I fit perfecting inside of the box that is Santa Clara, but my heart is being pulled to grow.


I believe life with out adventure is pointless. Yeah that's a pretty extreme statement, but its true. In order to truly live your life you must break the routine of day to day activities with adventure. It doesn't have to something drastic like back packing in Europe. I can be something simple like going on a walk with out a destination. But, Adventure in necessary to live.